This is My Story

Yashas S.
India
#128
When I was 15 I noticed that my hands sweat and they always have a film on them. It has really affected my social life and limits my relationship with my girlfriend. While doing my 12th board exams I still sweat so much that it hinders my writing speed and I just keep on changing pens in the hope of getting a better grip on any of them so that I can finish my exam on time. The real reason I guess is nervousness, anxiety, excitation and well hot and humid environmental conditions. It makes me feel too uncomfortable during eating, studying and even during the examination time, even then I struggle a lot when I am outside. Personally, I have been suffering from sweating on palms (palmar hyperhidrosis) and feet (plantar hyperhidrosis). Public speaking never scared me, but shaking hands with anyone was a thing I dreaded. Nevertheless, it affects one's confidence negatively. I always wished to live a normal life just like other people though I saw other people suffered differently and I kept myself silent and cried in silence. When sweat drips, I feel helpless and it reminds the uncommonness in me. It sucks. The mind quickly sees the happy dry life of people around and compares it with my despair. I was so nervous that someone might notice my sweaty hands, that I would always try to make sure that I avoided shaking hands as much as possible. This condition had caused me a lot of anxiety and stress, while causing severe damage to my self-esteem. I struggle a lot while using laptops, while writing, while shaking hands with people, while driving, and much more. I have tried so many different deodorants and antiperspirants and none of them work. The only thing I can do till now is: 1. To stop closing my hands as a default mode 2. To wash my hands if they start sweating. I have tried visiting a dermatologist, exploring things on internet, using antiperspirants but none of them work. And the last but not least thing I can say is "yes, hyperhidrosis sucks". And the good thing is there are many treatments available today. So this is my long short story :)
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